I’ve always heard people saying “Time flies” when it came to kids. Well, today I am the one saying it about my own baby because she turned 1 month today. This really feels surreal because it seems it was yesterday when we rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night to soon meet our little girl.
Not planning to be a mom-blogger, I’m writing this down just to read it years later and laugh, cry and feel nostalgic. So, here is how Alessandra’s first month of life felt to me.
Turns out they don’t call the first few weeks “survival marathon” for nothing. Sleepless, clueless, stressed – this is how I would describe my first two weeks. What helped me through and what I’m thankful for beyond words is my friends circle. I honestly don’t know how some of you still didn’t block me on WhatsApp or Gtalk after my endless messages with endless questions. The amount of advice (solicited) support, consolation, experience sharing I received has been and is amazing and I am thankful beyond words for having this luxury. If it takes a village to raise the child, my online village is here to help me:)
Turns out babies tend to bring people together. Over this past month we have reconnected and talked to many people we haven’t talked in a long time, and of course all those video calls to our parents, uncles and aunts have become a daily routine for us. It feels great and another thing I can’t get over is people’s generosity. Alessandra and us have received so many gifts from literally all over the world, that we don’t believe in Santa anymore – we believe in our friends:)
Turns out hormones are real thing. I didn’t experience it much through my pregnancy and despite struggling physically I was pretty well put together mentally and emotionally. Until I gave birth. I think I literally cried a river during first couple weeks, for good reasons and no reasons at all. Frankly I’m still riding this emotional rollercoaster even though ups and downs are not as intense now (thank God!)
Turns out as much as the days with the newborn are sort of groundhog days, at the same time so far there are no two days or two nights alike. Ale may be asleep most of the day today and next day she will be up most of the day ( still can’t figure out where she gets her 16 hours of sleep as a newborn). No two nights have been the same either. Once she slept for 5 hours straight and I woke up in panic that something must have happened. Another night she was up every freaking hour. Every. Freaking. Hour. So was I.
Turns out I’m a control freak ( Surpriiiiiise!) and not knowing what the day or night will look like throws me off the hooks. I guess this is my life lesson to learn – just go with the flow and let it be and savour the moment and what else they say in their New Age psychology books.
Turns out the hardest thing as a parent is choosing the course of action and making a decision. The fact that there are so many options, so many opinions to choose from, so many sources of information is a blessing and a curse. There were times I felt my brain would literally explode from the amount of information and I was ready to just pay someone to come and make the decision for me. And guarantee it’s the best decision.
Turns out having a baby does change the way you look on many things. I remember before having Ale I would argue with Igor that there was nothing wrong in posting the baby pictures online. Since the moment she was here, I feel so protective over her, I’m not even ready to post a picture of me with the stroller. I think this stage will eventually pass, but it’s where I’m at now.
Turns out it does get better. I can now change a diaper without turning the lights on and can buckle her up in her car seat without tremor in my hands. And I’m getting used to being sleep-deprived too.
Turns out the amount of laundry you do with the newborn is tremendous. I worship our washer and dryer and have no clue how our parents raised us without having this luxury. It’s actually one of the reasons I cry sometimes. I told you, emotional rollercoaster.
Turns out amount of our love for our little baby girl grows as she grows. ❤️